I am going to switch gears for this next post (I promise I will get back to “finale” of my bariatric surgery journey) because this subject is heavy on my heart and mind at the current moment and I know I am not the only one out there who is experiencing this – conceiving another child.
I don’t understand it. When we conceived my daughter in March of 2016 it was so easy — almost too easy. I had come off birth control in January and my husband officially knocked me up in March. I honestly couldn’t believe it then but I am still forever grateful that we were blessed with our beautiful daughter. And I think that’s why I am having such a hard time understanding WHY I can’t get pregnant now. We started trying for Baby H #2 in December 2018 and so far nothing but 1 miscarriage and 3-4 chemical pregnancies.
I am doing everything right — I lost 80 lbs, I eat healthy (minus my wine…but I wined it up more when I got pregnant with Dani so…lol), I take a prenatal, probiotic, baby aspirin everyday. I use an Ovulation Predictor kit to determine exactly when I am most fertile too. The only thing I stopped doing was temping. I bought an AVA bracelet with the hopes it would help me with the tempting to conceive but it was HORRIBLE and I don’t recommend it to anyone. It never got my ovulation days correct, and half the time didn’t even sync overnight. It’s currently sitting in the nightstand in my room collecting dust lol.
I’ve been to a fertility specialist and everything seems to check out. So why can’t I have another baby? I think what makes this so hard is I only have a short window to have another baby. My husband deploys in 5 weeks and won’t return until the fall leaving only 3 months until we reach the cutoff we set. If by this cutoff date, we don’t conceive another child then I guess it just wasn’t meant to be. And FYI this date is set because we are both pushing 40 and we just don’t want to be in our 40s with an infant. Total personal choice.
I’m currently 4DPO as of this log post and the one thing we both tried different this month is an additional fertility supplement. I have been taking a product called Eu Natural Fertility Conception pills and my husband has been taking Fertilaid for men. These are the top two fertility supplements for men and women according to numerous websites such as amazon, etc. I saw so many reviews of people saying they were pregnant before finishing the first bottle. I do believe a lot of these reviews are manufactured or someone got paid for them but it sparked my interest enough for me to try them. I’ve linked them below for anyone curious… Only time will tell if they worked and by time I’m meaning a week or less lol!
I certainly don’t have my hopes up though. In fact, I am prepared for the day when my next period starts and I am sitting in the bathroom wiping away my tears and trying not to let my daughter see me in this moment or trying not to show my husband that my body has again failed me. I feel like such a failure every month we continue to try and I don’t get pregnant. And it doesn’t help that EVERYONE AND THEIR FUCKING MOTHER is pregnant these days. Don’t get me wrong — I am so happy for them because for all I know they could have struggled with the same thing as well. I just can’t help but feel a little jealous. I wish it was me announcing on Facebook the exciting news, you know?
Anyway, anyone who has gone though fertility struggles, do you have any suggestions? Any one product or thing I should be doing that will boost my chances? I literally have one more month to try before my husband leaves 😦 Has anyone tried the pills below and had success or no?
Click here to view the Conception pills on Amazon
Click here to view the Fertilaid for Men on Amazon